Alex Reid "still loves" estranged wife Katie Price.
The cage-fighter - who split with the former glamour model after less than a year of marriage in January - is "moving on" from their relationship but still has strong feelings for the 32-year-old beauty.
He said: "I've been angry, upset and I've done some grieving. There have been some tough times and now I'm moving on. I have to.
"I'm regrouping myself. I've got to level the wings before I land the plane, so to speak. I still love Katie and so many have people have said I was crazy, but I just sing that old Dean Martin song, 'When the moon hit your eye like a big pizza pie, that's amore'.
"I fill my life with love and it's not that I'm not ready to find romance. I'm just not looking."
Alex still finds it hard to be separated from Katie's children - Harvey, eight, Junior, five and three-year-old Princess Tiaamii - and still thinks about the "fun times" he spent with them.
He added in an interview with Now magazine: "It's really tough. I don't know what to say. It kills me. I was playing with my nephew the other day. He's the same age and they all used to play together.
"I like Katie's kids a lot, but I'm trying to focus on the positive memories. When I was training this morning I kept thinking about all the fun times we had and that's the best way I know to get through this."